Hallu people! This post is a result of me not being able to sleep post-night duty. It will be full of crap. Anyway, above is a snapshot taken from the place the princesses had our photoshoot last Saturday. Standing there, not quite sure what’s the exact time the train is going to pass by was quite scary. Especially when I saw someone in a car passing under the bridge waving frantically at us and endlessly pointing to his wristwatch. Maybe he often see trains pass by at that time. But I chose to trust the guard at the train station. Dangerous, but provides a perfect backdrop for the shoot. We risked our lives to capture moments in celebration of eight years of friendship. You guys have been my best friends through thick and thin. You guys saw me laugh, cry… And on that day, maybe was the first time you guys saw me panic buruk tahap maksima. 
But thank you. For being there when no one else bothered.
I will go through the trials, whatever it maybe. And sometimes, tough decisions have to be made, for one’s own good. We have to bear the consequences of our own actions. But, really, do things always result because of your own action? Talk about karma…. “what goes around comes around”… Really? In a food cycle, the food producers are always at the losing end. The only good thing it receives is shit as fertilizers from the animals. (OK analogy is a bit difficult to figure out hehe).
If I cannot go through trials when I’m 25, I might end up so stressed up and probably die of cancer even before my 50th birthday… And I WANT to be there for my children (in future) at least until they get married. Cos I believe, when you lose a father, you will gain a “father” in you mother.
April will be a fresh start for me. No, I’m not leaving my job or anything. It’s just a target date for a new change. Just thought that I need some catching up to do with myself. 
Hope after I turn 25, my life will never be the same again. For the better, I hope, Insya Allah!
May will be the start of my new semester. All the best to me juggling work, “own room, own self” chores, and studies. People consider me lucky cos I only have my own bills to pay, I’m paid a decent amount each month, and I have only my own mouth to feed. But, I dont mind being in the opposite situation. Cos money only buys temporary happiness.
Whatever it is, appreciate those who care about you, cos when you blink, they might have slipped away.
Toodles.
